Christmas Time

What is Christmas? Christmas is a time to share with your family and friends. It is a time of joy and happiness. It is not about the gifts at all. In fact, my family and I aren’t exchanging much gifts this year. We are content with everything we have. And I find that extremely fascinating. Not only is it something new and different, but it is also something highly influential and inspiring for myself. Now that I’m older, I have realized that I don’t need EVERYTHING materialistic in this world to be happy. What I really need is my family. Love is so beautiful. It is especially beautiful when it is shared with the people that mean the most to you. What would any holiday be without sharing it with the people you love? It would be quite pointless. Sure, some say that they are content alone but what person spends a holiday alone? It is very rare. Holidays are what bring people close together. I am Catholic, so Christmas is a very important thing to me because it is the day that Jesus was born. In essence, this is really why we call Christmas Christmas, because it was the day Christ was born. I am religious, however I’m not one to constantly boast about my religion or how much I follow what I follow. I firmly believe that whether people know things about me means nothing. What matters is I know for myself who I am and what I believe in. Now that Christmas is just around the corner, I’m beginning to forgive everyone that has hurt me this year. I tend to do this each Christmas. Just like Jesus forgives us for our sins, I forgive those who have done me wrong in the past. But, most importantly I make it my goal to forgive myself for what I have done wrong this year. Nobody is perfect and believe me, I’m not even close to perfect. I’ve hurt people that mean the most to me this year and it is almost like a burden to me. I gave up my best friend for a boy. And for what? Just to be hurt in the end by the guy I thought was it. I guess you can never be sure what relationship is going to last and what relationship isn’t. But, what I find the most messed up about what I did was I left my best friend when she needed me the most. I feel as if I failed her. And I know it’s okay because I continued to be there for her. She is back in my life again and I have learned my lesson. But, I know never to give up a person that means so much to me for another person’s happiness and my temporary happiness. I look at it this way, I could try and say that I failed by best friend, but in reality, who can you really fail but yourself? I lost the guy I truly loved. A guy I spent years trying to figure out when all he ever did was get to know me on his own time. He told me I was the biggest mistake of his life and a waste of time. When he first told me this, I believed him and believe me it hurt like shit. But I realize now that I don’t deserve someone who sees less than my worth. Like an inspiring quote from the movie ‘Gods Not Dead,’ “To the wrong person, you will never have any worth.” Although I fell for this guy, I’ve learned that God does what he does for a reason. I’ve learned a lot from my relationship and all those lessons and memories I shared with this incredible person, I will cherish forever. Your maturity isn’t based off of what you did in the relationship, but with how you handle the result of the failed relationship. Why hate someone when there is a possibility to love their imperfections?  Sure he hurt me, but what relationship does’t hurt? That’s the beauty of it. Knowing you can still feel the pain. Knowing that your still alive even after you thought you wouldn’t survived and that the pain was too unbearable. Love is such a beautiful tragic thing. And you learn so much from it. So to you, my readers, never give up! The things we experience in life are what strengthens us and helps us grow as individuals. Never forget your worth. And most importantly, Never give up. 

An Ordinary

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