a free thought

I stare amongst the fired eyes – the life within the space.

The life that I so crave.

The life I could create – but I don’t.

Instead, I just watch.

I watch as the trains pass and the rails keep going until they do not.

Just like your life goes on until it doesn’t anymore.

This is not to get confused with life in general – for that stops for no one.

But the life I lead will eventually give out and the grains of sand will finish the hourglass and I don’t think anyone will be so kind to turn it over for me. They will be too busy with their own.

I have found a need to love myself. To feel enough for the people I love. To not need the reassurance of love from them but to be able to find it within.

I stare amongst the fired eyes of others but where are my own? Where is the fire to ignite them? It is within. Buried beneath the insecurities that even I,  myself, have suppressed. I look at myself as this confident lioness. But the truth is, I am a sheep. Not completely – a hybrid. A sheep morphing. But the only one that can complete the process is me. How will others love me completely if I do not even love myself? Who am I? Who are we? You are I. I am you.

There will always be someone beautiful. Someone funny. Someone that could potentially become the love of someone’s life. There is no such thing as being better than another. Rather, everyone has their own qualities that are just right for them and maybe if someone gets lucky, for that someone as well. Why waste time being insecure? If you are meant for someone. If that someone loves you. You will be the ONLY one perfect in their eyes. Let not an insecurity or fear of being alone keep you from the love you so deserve – from a love that deserves you.

There is no better love than the love you give yourself.

I feel the power of love pounding my chest to break through  – the passion within wanting to ignite. I will let it ignite. Will you?

I stare amongst the fired eyes – the life within the space.

The space is the mirror.

The eyes are my own.

I no longer watch.

They do.

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