5.6.18 Updates

 

it’s hard to believe that the end of my 2nd semester of college is approaching. I have studied about 4 hours straight reviewing for my Neuroscience final that is tomorrow (my last final)! I was in the mood to write earlier when I was studying but I forced myself to get through with reviewing all four units (14 chapters) before writing so now my urge to write has kind of depleted. I have to listen to myself more often! Anywho, this year of college has really tested my ability to be alone as well as my ability to balance my academics and my relationships (friendships, family, significant others). I felt so damn lonely for the longest time. It wasn’t until literally 2/3 weeks ago that I found someone very similar to me that kind of filled that void. I’m forever grateful for that. Also, I really improved in managing my time and studying. Depending on what I get on my final, I’ll most likely be looking at a 4.0 GPA as a Neuroscience major for this semester. Let me know if you guys want tips on studying, I’d be more than willing to dedicate a post to that. I’m just so damn ready to finally be able to make time for myself. I’m currently listening to Kusanagi by ODESZA. The sun is hitting the table that I’m sitting at in Starbucks/Moody Library so nicely. I’ll insert pics 😉 SO much is in store for this summer. The first two months (May & June) will consist of time for myself, working out, writing, spending time with the people that mean the world to me. July will be spent in Great Britain and Paris studying Behavioral Medicine and Clinical Psychology. August will consist of bringing my mind back and ready to take on my second year of college moving into my very first apartment. Excited to spruce it up to make it a real home w/ cute plants and all the simplicities of life that make it worthwhile. This just turned into an update post lol but whatever, it works. I’ve taken to Tumblr again which you guys can find me @notetolife as well. Tumblr is like twitter for me but so much more intimate. I would love to connect with you all there as well ❤  I’m currently working on loving myself more and really just coming to terms with who I am. Okay, so now Manastra // Summer Salt is playing. wow. i feel so happy.  Anyways. I’m at the part in my life where I am still growing and figuring out what exactly I want in life and who I want to be in it. It’s a tough journey – life, But I know I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now. Gonna let the light SHINE on me. That was unplanned but LMFAO, leave a comment if you know what that song references. If you don’t know, you haven’t lived. hehe. Anyways, I’ll wrap this up with a couple last words. I plan on writing way more like WAY more. On here. On Tumblr. I might try youtube again – covers and maybe even some originals that I have been working on. I plan on reading way more. My goal is to read about 5 books this summer. Future Police // The Irons.  Okay, I’m going to go back to studying. Thanks for reading it all the way to here if you did :’)

to all of the important people in my life: thanks for being here for me. I am internally grateful for you even if I don’t say it much. Colourway // Novo Amor. 

talk to you all soon.

mo

a song & a thought

I do not know what I would do without music to keep me sane when my thoughts are constantly racing. So here is a quick recommendation. This song, in particular, makes me think of a time in my life where I am getting ready to go out with close friends to a really nice dinner. I imagine myself putting on a burnt orange dress and heels. A point in my life where I am content and have no worries about who or what will come into my life. Instead, I am simply enjoying the present and all that it “presents” me with. I crave a time in my life as such. Maybe one day I will find that bliss. But for now, I think a part of me will always worry about what is to come. I suppose that is an aspect of myself that I would like to change. Life is hard. It is for everyone I am sure. I long for true happiness where I can sit on the couch that I have earned through hard work and persistence and hopefully one day share it with another. Until then, I am still an embodiment of dependence on financial supporters who are depending on my own hard work to make all of this worth it. One day, I will find that moment but for now, I just have to take it one day at a time.

Mo

 

 

New Year, New Approach

Happy New Year to all of you out there in the blogosphere! While the New Year is great for pushing people to set new resolutions and goals, I have never really been one to be like “Oh it is a New Year so I am going to workout and do this and that” because let’s be real who really ever sticks through those for the entire year? If you do, then I salute you, because I normally never make it to two months.  This year I am trying a different approach. For this year I have sat long and hard and asked myself, “In what ways would I like to see myself improve this year?” I then took those aspirations and figured out ways to incorporate some type of daily habit that would allow me to target those aspects of myself that need some refining. For example, this year I want to be more at channel with myself and my thoughts because last year I really let the things going on around me distract me from well, me. In order to incorporate this aspiration into my daily life, I have opted to do some form of meditation or writing every day. This really gives me a time to just focus on myself because let’s face it, if we take the time out of our busy lives to eat and use the restroom and call our family and friends, then we can set aside time for ourselves (especially because nothing is more important than you!) There is this whole misconception that if you think that way that you are selfish or that you are full of yourself, but sometimes you have to be when it comes to being TRULY happy. Never let yourself be distracted by the needs of others that you forget to put yourself first. I hope this approach works out for me. I’ll most likely do another post about my “daily habits” later on in the month. But until then…

Good luck to all of you in all of your endeavors for the new year…you can do it 🙂

Mo

Rüfüs Du Sol

Over the past few months, I have gained a HUGE appreciation for EDM. Besides the fact that I will be attending FPSF, an electronic music festival, in a couple of weeks, I have always enjoyed Electronic Dance Music. However, after reading the lineup for the festival, I delved more into different artists that are not considered “mainstream,” which to my expectancy have been amazing artists. I typically do not listen to mainstream music, which is why I generally enjoy going to festivals because there are so many artists out there and it is really an easier way to just find new and different music. I have already found great artists that are now on my day-to-day playlist, but for this post, I wanted to highlight one in particular: Rüfüs Du Sol

This artist literally makes me feel like I’m living in Abercrombie, and if any of you have never been to this place, you can always find it in a mall, blasting dance music. Okay but honestly, this music always makes me feel like I am on a natural high and it makes me feel like all my worries are minuscule compared to the realm of the world that many of us have yet to experience. Please check this artist out. Below you will find a playlist of this artist’s music. Enjoy 🙂

My Top 3 Favorites: You Were Right, Be With You, and Tell Me

An Ordinary

I’m a YouTuber?!

 

I’m so excited to announce that I have begun my journey as a YouTuber! Yesterday, I posted my third video. I’ve decided that I’m going to have a variety channel that is going to highlight every ounce of passion I have, whether that be in music, fashion, anything lifestyle related, advice or anything else that sparks my interest. This recent video that I have linked below is a cover of Youth by Daughter that I did with my friend Bri (she is honestly so talented). Please check it out. Subscriptions, likes and comments are appreciated but aren’t necessary. I just wanted to share this with you all. This has consumed a lot of time. YouTubers don’t get enough credit for the amount of work that goes into every video! I definitely have a huge appreciation for people who do YouTube or any other outlet as a part of their daily lives, including blogging!

I’m so excited for this journey. If any of you have a YouTube or anything that they are passionate about, including their blogs, please feel free to drop a link! I would love to check it out ❤

Sunday Night Sound

Happy Sunday!

How are you all doing? The end of the week calls for a song recommendation. This week isn’t an artist but a specific song which happens to be from my favorite movie Jennifer’s Body. Jennifer’s Body is one of those movies that is great but attracts my attention even more because of the bad ass soundtrack. I mean seriously… I watch all the way through the entire credits because that’s how good the music is. This song happened to be the first song played on the credits. It is called Ready for the Floor by Lissy Trullie. Please check it out.

Special shout out to music for having the ability to alter my mood in a matter of seconds 😉

~An Ordinary

Your GPA Does Not Define You

persevere

I apologize for my absence this past week. Despite feeling, for the most part, happy all of last week, I’m not sure I was all there mentally to be able to actually sit down and write. But, I am back!

It is the last and final semester of my senior year and I have always been one to keep up with my grades and make sure that I am maintaining A’s and the best GPA possible. But lately,  I have felt so laid back about school. It isn’t that I don’t care about my grades, I just choose not to let them define me as a whole. I used to constantly stress about grades and honestly, I just wasn’t that happy with how my life was going. I always believed that the key to success was having the best grades and scoring 100s on tests. Junior year, when I began taking AP classes, a fact was thrown in my face: I can’t always get 100s on all my tests. Certain subjects will be difficult for me to grasp,this was AP US History last year, and that is okay! What matters is that you accept your grade, try to learn what you did wrong, and try not to make the same mistakes that you did in the past. I winced at the idea of having to go to tutorials (time after school to get help) because I thought it was embarrassing that I was struggling when I had never had problems with any classes before that year. I realized after I began going to tutorials that I got better when I actually acknowledged that I was struggling with the class and went to lengths to improve in my weaknesses. And you know what? I ended up scoring a 4 on the AP test (the best score being a 5).

Despite the struggle, last year really taught me that it is not those who have a gift to succeed who actually succeed in life but the people who take advantage of the resources they have and use them to persevere and continue to push themselves even when they are down. A lot of individuals who are successful had to work their way up. And this is what I plan to do. Continue to persevere and do my very best to be my very best. Your GPA does not define you as a person. Your character, your willingness to push yourself despite the trials and tribulations, and your passion is what will fuel your success. Keep pushing forward.

An Ordinary

A Glimpse Into What I Wear For School

A glimpse into what I wear for school. To those who have time to choose their outfits the night before, I salute you. Me? I’m sure I COULD fit it into my schedule in some shape or for, but the truth? When I finish my work for the day and my workout, all I want to do is shower and sleep. For some reason, this week in particular, I was reallyyyyy feeling my outfits. therefore here they are 🙂 kinda upset I didn’t take more pictures of the blue sweater because it was personally my favorite outfit. I am a HUGE FAN of 7 For All Mankind so literally every pair of jeans that I own are from that brand so if you take any liking to my jeans, you can find them at the link. 🙂

From One Soul to Another

So I just found out another one of my poems is going to be published and I realized that I hadn’t read it since I first submitted it. I decided to take a read again and I was honestly just filled with so much emotion and my heart is currently beating so fast. It is such a powerful thing to take the love you have for someone and express it into words: all the pain,  all the lines of your veins carrying the blood that fueled the passion in your heart for another. I would love to share this poem with you all. It is me and myself to the rawest core.

You are the flame that burns with passion the love that I’ve lost in your cigarette. The love that was taken from me when I thought I didn’t even have it to begin with.

My heart is unmended, a part of a whole that is somewhere in a place no longer there.

Is it possible for a ghost to take your hand and make you feel warm despite the cold they bestow upon others? We form a reaction that cannot be explained with scientific words but simply  by the word “Soulmate.”

You breathe into me the air my lungs lack when I am screaming and yelling “Leave! Go! I don’t want you here…don’t leave me like this…I never told you to go.”

Why are you still tapping my shoulder as you pass in front of me? You move so fast. I can’t even remember whether you were even here to begin with or if it was just a figment of my imagination.

What is love when it is drained from my body onto yours like plaster on top of porcelain? Art. You could never appreciate art as it was. You had to brush your palms against it. You picked it up from the gallery and recklessly tossed it and let it fall to pieces as you continued your walk to the next gallery. You should have just passed by.

What a beautiful mess you’ve created.

Sorry guys, I didn’t mean to get in my feelings lol. But seriously, art in every form is beautiful whether that be music, painting, drawing, writing, etc. The passion you set forth into the world is an amazing creation and one to be proud of. Hope this inspires you to keep pushing forward through whatever obstacles, and although life may not end up the way you wanted it to, whether it be in a relationship, career choice or everything in between, you CAN and WILL get past it. The pain or feelings may not ever truly fade, but the inevitable is that the light will come again.

If the hurt comes, so will the happiness” 

~An Ordinary

Saturday Sounds: Zero 7

About a week ago I was watching the movie Blue Crush about this surfer who falls in love with a  football player and it never fails that I find a good artist or song from a movie. In this particular movie, it was Destiny by Zero 7. The musicality of the song sounded familiar and once I found out it was Zero 7, it brought me back to my younger days when I used to listen to this artist. This artist literally gives me such great vibes and there is the chill aspect to the music that just makes you want to close your eyes and recognize everything that you are feeling great about. It is so funny because literally every artist that I mention on this page gives me great vibes and it is the complete truth. Each artist/song I recommend offers something different alongside the same great vibes. Check out Zero 7. I am linking the song Destiny, however, they have some other great songs. My other favorite, other than Destiny, would probably have to be In the Waiting Line.

If I were to describe Zero 7’s music in one word it would be Bliss.